Obviously you don't know me, althought I hope you did get my reference to the legen-waitforit-dary Barney Stinson. The reason I'm starting this whole blogging thing is because I finally decided it was time for me to make some drastic changes in my daily life. But knowing me, (I mean I lived with me for 18 years now), I know for sure I will get scared at some point, and just do what I usually do, quit and cry my ass out... That's why I decided to blog about my journey to hapiness and inner peace, this way I will get to keep a close eye to all the progress I am making, to say whatever is on my mind, just let it all go, and hopefully get to meet people going through the same struggle and give each other the support we need. Internet is bringing everybody closer and making it so easy to interact : you'll never walk alone!
Maybe you guessed it, maybe not, but as common as this may sound, I actually decided to get rid of the extra weight I've put on these past few years, and yes get rid of it, not just lose it, I'm not planning on ever finding it again. Honestly I have never been this motivated, but then again, I'm not even started yet... This whole journey is very exciting, but I'm human after all, a very lazy always hungry one too, and I'm aware that it will be extemely hard to go through with this, especially the first months, and the worst is there is no date to look up to, when you start this particular journey, you're in it for life, otherwise you are just waisting your time and energy. It took me years to finally realize that.
Ugh, I'm starting to get too serious and emotional, and this post is definetly not about that. I mean if I start my posts sounding that depressing, who the hell will want to read my blog? This journey is all about positivity, I'm doing this to get rid of all the negetivity (I accumulated in me throughtout the years) in the first place.
Anyway, my name is Halima, I know it's uncommon, weird, whatever, it's arab. I'm 18 years old as I stated earlier, and I'm from Morocco. This year I moved to Lille, in north France, to study biological engineering. At first it was very exciting, experiencing adult life, having responsibilities, grocery shopping, cooking meals... but soon enough it got a little more complicated than I expected, which lead to an extremely unhealthy lifestyle involving fast food, pizza, fast food again, chocolate (lots of it), sugar, sugar,and did I mention sugar?! And let's not forget about sleeping, sleeping, napping, sleeping... I lost all interest in school, actually I lost interest in life... I stopped going out, just stayed home, rejecting everyone who tried to talk to me, I just wanted to be alone, thinking that was the smart thing to do. I didn't want anyone seeing me with all that extra weight, whenever I went out, I started imagining people looking at me with disgust in their eyes, and that just broke me everytime. I didn't have a mirror at home and never tried to get one, fearing the reflection I'd have to face... I should have though, maybe it would have been some kind of motivation.
I also have type 1 diabetes, and as you might guess, that didn't help either. I stopped taking care of myself, and started doing the exact opposite of what I am supposed to do. This whole thing got me really down and depressed, and I totally lost that spark that defines me, I went from being the fun one to the depressing always sad one, and honestly who wants to be around such a bad mess?!
I''m not very tall, that's probably why the extra pounds really show on me. My goal is to lose 22 pounds in about six months, but my main goal is to actually keep that weight away, and to become a new me, a me I never found within me to this day.
I think for a first post this is more than enough, I have a lot to say, but for now I'll leave it at this.
To be clear, this whole blogging thing is mainly a way for me to express myself, and say whatever I feel like saying, and also have something to go back to when I'm really feeling down and about to give up, I think it's a great way to motivate your own self.
I'm done for the moment, may the force be with me, I am wishing myself a good luck.
